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Wrapping Up the Year: a look into the highs and lows of my 2019 reading career

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hiiiiiiiii book friends!!

In my absolute fashion, I am 5 months late on publishing this post and i considered staying hidden in my hole of sadness and unproductivity and not post at all, but you see, even i am not that pathetic. and also ok, maybe I already had the graphics drawn and there was no point in wasting my work

i miss you all VERY VERY VERY much and i will have an entire post dedicated to my disappearance and hopefully some ways to stop that from happening again. but until then, know that I’ve missed you terribly and am so happy to be back!!

and now without anymore delay, i present to you, my…..

Much More than Top 10 Books of 2019 (and of course the Worst books too)

a quick look at my stats:


and now we will get into each genre. as I could not have possibly picked a “Top 10 favourites” from the year because i read a ridiculous amount to even keep up with myself.

So instead, I chose a number of books [laughs nervously] from different genres to represent all the love and happiness they gave me during the year.

so here we go.


ya contemp

Famous In A Small Town: cute and sweet, and had that perfect touch of emma mills’s humour, friendships, family, and love. this also had deeper themes and i LOVED IT SO MUCH

Call it What you Want: kemmerer writes the most beautiful, touching, and adorable contemporary romances that always hit so hard. this was everything i expected

Michigan vs. the Boys: much darker and heavier than the other books in this group, this book tackles some really hard topics when a girl joins the boy’s hockey team and has to face harassment and insults. this book RUINED me

Technically You Started it: this book is told ENTIRELY in text messages and is the cutest thing ever. bingeable, adorable, and an absolute delight.


ya fantasy

A Curse so Dark and Lonely: another Kemmerer book just to drive the point home, her writing is fabulous. a beauty and the beast retelling that is magical and whimsical in every way imaginable

We Hunt the Flame: idk if i screamed about this book enough this year, a middle-eastern set fantasy adventure story with the most sad, precious wayward squad. i love these characters with my whole heart

The Rithmatist: brando sando astounds me again with his amazingly creative complex magic systems. this book has the sweetest and most adorable characters but also so so so interesting and adventerous.

The Starless Sea: this book is an absolute dream. it has the most beautiful prose and characters and setting. it’s basically a narnia-like world but with owl kings and magical libraries.


high fantasy

The Lies of Locke Lamora: i look at high fantasy in a different light after locke lamora. this series is one of my favourite in the world!!! it’s very light on magic systems in the first book, so it’s about a bunch of con men who are actually clowns. 100/10 would recommend

The Alloy of Law: I almost feel as if i’ve become a broken record talking about brandon sanderson books, but can anyone blame me?? the second era of mistborn is a RIDE! It’s so much fun to read but it’s not as complex and daunting as the first era. and it’s really funny.

Words of Radiance: never would I have thought that i would get through these 1000+ paged mammoths. the first book in the stormlight series really took me time to get into but it was SO WORTH it for the second book. the magic system is PHENOMENAL, the characters are my whole heart, and the storyline is sO INTERESTING AAAAAAA

Poppy War: this book in brutal in every sense. It has a solider training school (?idk what thats called), a brutal war, and so much pain, i was not ready for how this book was going to hit me



Skyward: is such a fantastic book. it has a flight squad of misfits who are trying to defend their home from alien invaders. it’s all very cool

The Loneliest Girl in the Universe: this book is about a girl who is traveling alone in a spaceship (having correspondence with earth) but there was something about the writing that just trapped me in. it’s eerie and creepy and so well done

Middlegame: i have no idea how to explain this book. it’s one of the most science-y books i’ve ever read. following two twins that were genetically engineered and given to different families and finding each other and their fight against the ending of the world??? that reach.

Recursion: science hurts my brain and Recursion is all about deep deep science stuff. it’s about memories and lost memories and false memories and i loved it



The Child Finder: The Child Finder is about a private investigator who finds missing children. The writing, the story, the heartbreaking characters. this might be one of the best books i’ve ever read in my whole life

My Lovely Wife: a twisty book following a messed up couple who,,,,,,,can’t seem to stop,,,,,,,,killing people.

The Turn of the Key: this was such a well written thriller on a nanny/house sitter who is convicted of killing one of the children she was babysitting. IT WAS SO CREEPY AND GRIPPING and the ending actually had me SHOCKED

The Silent Patient: follows a lady who refuses to speak after she is allegedly charged with murdering her husband. it’s a great thriller that is engaging and twisty and had me shocked at the final reveal.


adult romance

Love and Other Words: a second-chance romance that flips between present day and past and is SO FREAKING PRECIOUS AND ADORABLE I LOVE THIS COUPLE WITH MY HEART

The Bride Test: helen hoang writes the greatest romance stories. khai avoids relationships and so his mother takes it upon herself to bring him a bride from vietnam, it’s a funny story about love and has sweet moments of family.

The Unhoneymooners: christina lauren is one of the best romance duos i’ve ever read. this follow two characters who severely dislike each other as they are forced to go on their (respective) siblings honeymoon (her sister married his brother) because the bride and groom got food poisoning. and from then on it’s all banter and cuteness

Evvie Drake Starts Over: two troubled characters are brought together and build this really sweet friendship that blossoms into something more. it’s such a darling story that is inspiring and angsty and super cute!!


adult fic

Station Eleven: a mystic story taking place after a global virus collapses civilization. it’s a tale of strength and pain and hope. the connections between the characters and the way the story is told is absolute magic

The Map of Salt and Stars: an absolutely heartbreaking story about a family who returns to their homeland in Syria only to have the war force them out. the prose is so lyrical and descriptive, i felt as if i was traveling through the pages

Ask Again, Yes: a family focused story spanning generations that highlights characters, personalities, the ups and downs of life, and forgiveness.

Miracle Creek: probably one of the BEST books i’ve ever read. a thrilling courtroom drama that extends to powerful topics of justice, immigrant identity, and caring for a special needs child. this book is not one that you forget.



The Great Alone: a raw story about domestic abuse and isolation. it takes place in alaska and follows the life of a young girl while she is forced to fight for her survival.

The Bear and the Nightingale: an incredibly atmospheric tale set in historic russia. it has magic forests and frost demon kings and folklore, basically making it the perfect winter read

The Downstairs Girl: set in 1890s atlanta and following a ridiculously clever asian-american young woman, this story is witty and fresh. it explores topics like racism and feminism while remaining humorous and engaging.Β  an absolute delight

A Thousand Splendid Suns: khaled hosseini making me cry AGAIN!!! this story is terribly heartbreaking but has such strong themes of family and hope and pain and sacrifice. someone hold me.


magical realism

Dig: I really don’t read much magical realism bc i find i don’t usually understand all the nuances but OH MY GOD DIG RUINED MY LIFE. it follows unnamed characters & potato farmers and lots of pain

The Enchanted: oh look, it’s rene denfeld’s books again. rene denfeld’s books were the biggest surprise to me this year. this is a book about inmates on death row ft. hints of magical aspects and this book tore my heart out. wowowowowowoow


novellasIn An Absent Dream: the wayward children series is such a whimsical and dreamlike collection. reading them is like climbing into another (more superior) world and wanting to stay and find out more.

G’morning, G’night: this was a collection of motivational quotes with adorable doodles and i found it so sweet and inspiring

Everyone’s a Aliebn When ur a Aliebn too: this is the cutest, most depressing graphic novel i’ve ever read. it’s about a little alien trying to understand earth and it’s so SOFT

That Can Be Arranged: (an arc) a graphic memoir about the author’s marriage. this book was so incredibly well explained but also very humourous and educational. i ADORE huda’s books!!!



i don’t want to dwell on the lows of the reading year, but below i’ve listed some of the biggest disappointments and most disliked books i’ve had to displeasure to read.

I’M SORRY if any of your favourites are on this list 😭😭 i truly don’t mean to be rude but they weren’t for me and i’m still glad you enjoyed them (don’t hurt me ok)

also for books that i ranted about, my reviews will be linked for your viewing pleasure (if you care, that is)

biggest disappointments

Red Sister: this truly just wasn’t for me. this book is so well praised by the fantasy community and yet i found it so hard to connect with the characters. it was tedious to read and i had nothing keeping me attached. 😦

Now Entering Addamsville: oh my god, i’m so sorry to everyone and most importantly myself. francesca zappia has written some of my favourite contemporaries but i truly found her try at “horror” to be the greatest miss. i couldn’t care about the character, plot, or conflict. im sorry

Ninth House: i’m not even going to apologize about this one. i wrote a lengthy review on why this turned out to be SUCH A MISS for me. if you care to know my detailed thoughts, you can read it HERE!

All-American Muslim Girl: aaaaaaaa this book made me SO MAD because it really could have been something NEW and great for muslim representation. but it turned out to be more confused than anything else. the representation was really badly written in my opinion and even threw in really controversial/complex topics without properly explaining and i just found it more damaging than helpful.


most disliked

The Idiot: i truly cannot believe how much time i wasted over this book. the book is pointless, the story is pointless, the characters are pointless, we get it.

Bring me Back: this had one of the worst plot twists i’ve ever seen a domestic thriller try to pull off. an absolute clown show. this started off good but the ending was laughable. boiiiii

Capturing the Devil: thomas cresswell really deserved better than this book. while i ADORE these characters, i thought this book was so ridiculous and tried to pull plot from thin air but it just ruined the finale for me. Detailed review if you want to read more.

Again, but Better: this is a surprise to no one but i found this book to read as badly written fanfiction rather than an actual book that deserves rights. sorry to christine but this kinda flopped.


AND THAT, concludes my reading year!!!

2019 was a real storm and while real-life stuff was an absolute disaster, i’m proud of my bookish related accomplishments. I found many new favourites and got to expand my reading tastes and try different things which actually turned out REALLY GREAT for the most part

i’m terribly sorry that i missed everyone’s Yearly Recap posts, but I will be going back and reading as many as i can as they are my favourite kind of content, so IF YOU WANT TO SHARE YOUR 2019 READING STATS, LEAVE ME A LINK IN THE COMMENT SECTION

i’d love to check them out!!

I hope 2020 brings us so much just and happiness and fantastic books even though we’re pretty much 3 months in. Wishing everyone the absolute best year πŸ’–signature final

22 thoughts on “Wrapping Up the Year: a look into the highs and lows of my 2019 reading career”

  1. okay first of all, soldier training school???? may……… MILITARY ACADEMY

    second of all, my favorite blogger in my feed again!! πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί the graphics are so amazing and i loved reading about all these books (especially to remind me of how godly u are at reading). it still makes me so happy to see how happy You are from we hunt the flame and its rep!!!

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    1. hahahah tHANK YOU why can’t i speak english anymore??

      omg dont sap me like this i didn’t ask for this how am i supposed to respond to you when you’re nice to me????πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί thank you you rat you’re going to make me cry now ok thanks for that

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  2. MAYYYYYY! I’m so sorry to hear 2019 was crazy for you and I hope 2020 goes a lot better for you. And I’m glad you had a great reading year and that you explored a bunch of different genres! You always inspire me to branch out more because let’s be real, I still find the majority of the books I read to be fantasy…

    And girl, you are so good with your 2019 wrap-up! I didn’t write mine till a few weeks ago. This post is beautiful so don’t you dare feel bad that it’s March (I personally still believe it’s January anyway)

    Eeek, don’t think I’ve read any of these books except for Station Eleven, but that’s awesome that you loved so many different books! Ooooh, The Downstairs Girl! I’m hoping to read that one soon once I get to spring break next week! And I actually got The Silent Patient as a gift for my mother for Christmas and I know she was super captivated by it, so I’ll def have to also pick that up soon!

    Ahhhh, I’ve missed ya so much!! But don’t feel pressured and stressed to start regularly posting again! We’re happy to see ya post whenever you’re able to ❀ ❀

    Here's my 2019-Wrap-Up if ya wanna check it out:

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    1. jfldjaf KERI!!! I’VE MISSED YOU!!! i hope you’re doing well. thank you so much for the kind words excuse me while i go cry πŸ₯Ίβ€οΈ

      i like to think its still january too, i know everyone said january lasted too long but you know what, it’s already a week into march and i felt like i’ve slept through 2 months i want to go back

      i can’t wait to hear your thoughts on the silent patient, it was such a captivating thriller and the downstairs girl!!! it was sooo good. lol reading station eleven right now might be wild, especially with the corona virus scare, IT FEELS TOO SIMILAR aaaaaaaa

      thank you so much!! i’m so happy to be back, i’ve missed this πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ίβ€οΈ

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      1. Awwww, I hope you’re doing well too! ❀
        And omg yes, let's please go back to January and start the year over
        And ahhh, yeah, now is not the time to reread Station Eleven. I think I'm honestly going to spend these next couple of months just gorging myself on happy and sappy romance books
        And I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE BACK!<3

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  3. *flailing* HOW DID YOU READ 200 BOOKS?? WHO ARE YOU Q U E E N??

    Is Emma Mills the same author for Lucky Caller?? I’ve been wanting to read her contemporaries!I also really want to read We Hunt the Flame and Starless Sea 😍Ninth House was probably a big disappointment for me too, and MAN DID I NOT ENJOY AGAIN, BUT BETTER. I’m glad we’re on the same page there πŸ˜‚

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      yessss!! emma mills is the contemporary queen, all her books are so soft and wholesome and genuine ugh my goal is to make everyone on earth binge her books.
      i hope you get to read we hunt the flame and starless sea soon and you love them!!
      hahah again, but better felt like a fever dream im sorry to us.


  4. MAYYYY! WELCOME BACK! honestly, lateness is the new black so don’t stress about it. also??? you read 200 books??? LEGENDARY. Sanderson is my new fave author and my new life mission is to read all his books asap?! (but knowing me; anytime between the next 1-867 months)

    YOUR THOUGHTS ON THESE BOOKS ARE SO INTERESTING AND NOW I’VE ADDED MOST OF THESE ONTO MY TBR. why mayyy?? the struggle is real. I’m so happy you’re back and cannot wait to read more of your posts!

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    1. HELLO HI THANK YOU I’VE MISSED YOU!!!! wow lateness being in fashion?? this really is my year.
      my life mission is to now hear ALL your thoughts on sanderson books bc they’ve pretty much taken over my life, we love that for us.

      i’m sorry for destroying your tbr but not really bc i need you to read them so we can cry together! thank you so much!! i’m so happy to be back you’re going to make me cry πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ίβ€οΈ


  5. WELCOME BACKKK!!!! I’ve missed your posts so much and was so excited to see this in my feed πŸ˜€ First off, 200 books is such a GREAT accomplishment like wow girl I’m so happy for you! Emma Mills is the best – I’ve got to read Famous in a Small Town ASAP – and I’ve been wanting to read Dig for a while too. πŸ˜‰ This post was so fun to read and I can’t wait for more ❀ ❀

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    1. Ashhhhh!! thank you so much ❀️❀️ i’ve missed you too!! and im so happy to be back. I CAN’T WAIT FOR YOU TO READ FAMOUS IN A SMALL TOWN, its literally one of my favourite books ever written i hope you love it!! (and let me know how that goes hehe)
      thank youuuu!! ❀️❀️

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  6. MAY I’M COMMENTING ON THIS POST LATE BECAUSE I AM MESS, BUT I’M SO GLAD THAT YOU’RE BACK AHHHH! from the bottom of my heart, I hope you’re doing well πŸ₯ΊπŸ’•πŸ’•πŸ’• u only deserve the best!!!

    MAY YOU ARE SO WELL READ HOWWWW. this post called me uncultured & i thanked it 😊😊 Also, almost all of your faves are on my TBR!! and you make them sound so good 😍😍 cannot wait to read Skyward, Lies of Locke Lamora, We Hunt the Flame, etc. etc.
    I’m super happy that you found a lot of faves in 2019, and I wish you a great reading year in 2020 again πŸ₯ΊπŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’–πŸ’– love youuuuuu (and i will reply to the comments u left on my blog soon again im mess)

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    1. CAITLIN!!!!!!!! NO DONT WORRY ABOUT THAT!!! IM SO HAPPY TO BE BACK!! I’M SORRY I MISSED ALL YOUR AMAZING POSTS BUT IM GOING TO HAVE TO REMEDY THAT ASAP ❀️❀️❀️❀️ i’m doing much better now and feeling less overwhelmed thank you sm πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί

      hahahaha oh my god that’s SO NOT TRUE you read an incredible amount too pls
      i can’t wait for you to read skyward, locke lamora, and we hunt the flame too!! i hope you love them all bc they own my heart

      thank you so muchhhh i love you moreee and i’ve missed this and i cant wait to continue (and omg pls dont worry about that!!!) πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ’–πŸ’–

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  7. WELCOME BACK ahh It’s SO good to read another blog post from you ❀ I am amazed by how much you've read in the past year, like, HOW. This is incredible. I really reaaaaaaally want to read Technically, You Started It as well as We Hunt The Flame, I'm so very happy you liked both of these so much! And I've been wanting to read Again, but BEtter, but kind of changed my mind because of the reviews ahah. I'm sorry this was a disappointment 😦
    I hope this year has been good to you so far, wishing you all the best!! ❀

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    1. marie you’re so sweet omg i’ve missed you SO MUCH!!! πŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯ΊπŸ₯Ί i think you would TOTALLY love ‘technically you started it’ it’s so cute and wholesome and IT’S SUCH A FAST READ
      ahh thank you, but good on you for dodging it, it’s not the best experience!
      thank yOU SO MUCH!!! I hope you’re having an amazing year too!! πŸ’–πŸ’–

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  8. May!! Hi!!! Okay first off, I am obsessed with like all your highs! Technically, You Started It was AMAZING! And Starless Sea and Dig and The Lies of Locke Lamora and and and! I’m literally just vibing with all your faves, and now I have to check out the ones that I haven’t read because it seems that our reading tastes are super similar 😁

    I’m so happy you’re back and I can’t wait to read your upcoming posts!! I hope your 2020 is going well!! ❀❀❀

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    1. hiiii!!! i’ve missed youuuu!! ❀️ I’M SO GLAD WE AGREE ON “Technically You Started It” bc i am Here for that sweet, fluffy, cute romances told in text ughh yesss. hahah i love how our brains are just 🀝 when it comes to reading preferences. love that for us!! (also excellent taste)
      Startless Sea, Dig, and Lies of Locke Lamora ruined my life?? but like in the absolute best way you know.

      thank you so much!! i hope you’re having an amazing month and enjoying all the books πŸ₯Ίβ€οΈ


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